Fare thee well, 2010.

I remarked to my wife just the other day that this year has been memorable one for us. Lots of things happened. Not just regular ol' stuff, mind you, but some major ass shit. We graduated college, moved, got a new car, she got a new job, I announced that I was resigning mine and we traveled to the West Coast again.

That is just off the top of my head, too.

There is other stuff. Stuff that doesn't seem big at first glance, but is conspicuous when compared to the rest of my years. I dropped football (for the most part) for football. The latter being soccer. I don't know if I would call the World Cup the catalyst, but it unsurprisingly had a major impact on my new hobby. Now I have this little indoor league squad that I captain. Who woulda thunk? I play FIFA a shitload more than NCAA Football, a fact that would have been unbelievable last year. Again, not huge stuff but big in comparison.

2010 has also been important for this little blog. It has fallen into disuse. There have only been 60 posts (including this one) this year. I am of two minds on what to do with it's future. There are different outlets for the rants that it originally housed and this also has no real overall theme, anyway. Other topics were compartmentalized in their own sites in an attempt at correct that problem, leaving me with nothing but bullshit for this thing. A traverse through the archives reveals filler posts in between a few longer rants that otherwise would have had no home. So I thought about deleting it.

I don't want to do that, though. It doesn't cost me more than ten bucks a year (domain registration) and the previously mentioned uses -- housing the things too long for twitter and too personal for the other sites, and it let's me try out web-related coding from time to time -- have stayed my hand.

The most prominent complaint is that I feel like I have to keep putting stuff up here, even when I don't have much to say. I'd like any posts to come organically and not be forced. Other times I try to give myself reasons to write because it gives me motivation and reason to not let my writing skills atrophy.

Whatever. I'll probably let it go on until I become embarrassed by it or something.

I am proud of Mean Green Nation and Denton: Rated. I had high hopes for the latter, but my own procrastination combined with circumstances conspiring against it prevented a more vigorous effort. It gets the most regular views despite it's poor maintenance record and I still want to do more fun stuff with it. We'll see how all that goes.

MGN is like NTM, part two. One of the unacknowledged reasons for starting this blog was because I had it somewhere in my head that I should blog about being at UNT, but not really. Early on I realized that topic wasn't focused enough for a blog theme. And really -- what the fuck would anyone care what some asshole did at school everyday? I certainly wasn't going to write up the actual things I did, either. If I would have, there would have been two realistic options: A.) Be boring as shit and B.) Live an interesting life while also secretly blogging about it. That would require an amazing ability to be vague yet compelling. I would have had to do some Harriet the Spy shit. Unfortunately, I am a little too honorable and also a little too underfunded. I ain't got socialite money and I was/am spoken for. 'The fuck kind of stories am I going to tell then? Amirite?

Let's not leave out the fact that both options are extremely self-important, douchey things to cover. I've perused a few 'I Wore This Outfit Today' posts in my time on the webz. Completely uninteresting. I've also seen my share of 'Drunken Tales of Hook Up, Bro' (try Deadspin for that) stories, too. Completely eyeroll-inducing.

As I was saying, however, MGN is focused. It has purpose and it has a future. For that I am glad.

It does, disappointingly, have it's limitations. Whereas other team-focused blogs can use the national media as tools, the dearth of coverage for North Texas games makes this shit fairly difficult. To make the blog really awesome, I will have to go out and actually work at it. Ugh.

Not that I am unwilling. I am totally down for a labor of love. Not so down for a labor of love and sacrifice, though. This means, of course, that really doing it would use up the time and effort I have earmarked for other hobbies and life shit. Sometime next year I will probably make a full run at it. A very large portion of the site's popularity will vary with the popularity and success of the UNT basketball squad. Right now I am predominantly writing for the five people who give a shit about the night to night adventure of the college basketball regular season.

If only I gave more of a shit, too. I used to be a die-hard guy. I would have been awesome at this shit if 13-year old me was covering this team. Like they did to my dad, time and experience have transformed me into a big-picture guy.

Wait. I am being a little unfair to myself. I do have fits of obsessiveness on occasion. I probably would breakdown some UNT film if I didn't have to shoot it myself--

You know what? Fuck it. I'll stop bitching. I need to find me a way to get game clips. If I have to go to the video guy, I'll go to the fucking video guy.

Sorry for being a little bitch, 11 phantom readers.

I also apologize for this turning into a blog-retrospective, but really, you don't pay me and it's my shit anyway so I can do that.


Happy New Year!